Siblings day

Dear brother,
I am not being emotional like a child, but being a mature person I'm accepting the truth. i have to that's the only way  I left to let it all be out.
I do love you, actually a lot because I know you since my birth and sometimes I ask myself why ? and may be your style of  brotherhood is reason behind this.
I played with you but we could not make it a team.
I laughed with you but you were rarely the reason behind my smile.
we drove together but I wanted to hit the roads with you.
We both fought together, but I never broke your heart, and yes you did break mine somehow and never noticed as you might have thought I am going to fine because you are my only brother.

we both had fun together but I never insulted you, but you did, I remember the day you insulted me before our relatives to get a laugh out of show.

We both ate desserts, but I wanted to prepare your favorite cake for you on your birthday.
you helped me whenever I asked for it, but you did not come when I needed it the most, you didn't knock my door when I just about to kill myself instead you scold me for being lazy and staying in my room all the time.
Dear brother, we could have touched the skies, but you wanted control over my wings.
If you ever looked to the inner me you would have found that I am happy, sad, miserable, joyful, naughty,lonely, sweet, sincere, honest, caring and lovely, but you just never tried.

Dear bhaiya, you imposed your decision on me to teach me discipline, but I already know when to be that way.

"may be you also wanted me to fly high as possible but only as long as I fly beneath you."

yes you are having your own life, may be you are very happy with it, but you hardly ever know that your sister have her own world and if you ever joined it in, you would have gone mad.

You look sincere as fuck but I have seen your stupid side and I know your weak points, and I wish you to improve.
Dear brother, I'm happy that you're moving but I didn't think you'll change, and this is the time I want you to prove me wrong.
I am not sure if I'll miss you or not, but I guess you won't, and even if we both do miss each other, no one of us will admit it.

I am not sure what I may feel for you in your absence, but i guess my absence won't affect you much, but if it does, none of us will admit, specifically me.

I am not sure if you'll call me just to listen to my voice, even I won't call you to that, but the first thing on call I'll notice will be your voice tone and by that I'll try to figure out what's going within you.

Yes we were living under same terrace from years, and we were brother and sister,
I wish this distance turns our bond into love and you realize that you have someone back in home who is waiting to see a improved brother rather than seeing you just as a "changed man."

I wish you realize that I acquire the capability to do great things and I'll do one day,
I wish you think of me as gift from parents rather than thinking of a poor lost girl who's responsibility is over you.

I wish when you come back and you'll run your hand on my head and admit that you really missed me and my every stupid activity, and if you do so, here's a tight hug waiting for you in return.
Dear brother,

Everyone can be a brother, but it takes someone special to be a ''bro" and I wish you become one.

-Your sister.